Where Can I Get A Brand New Set of Long Lean Arms, or Hands?

My soul must be really clean by now.
I think I'm depressed.
I have so much going on in my mind.
My problem is, i love to torture my mind by re-thinking and re-play E.V.E.R.Y S.I.N.G.L.E T.H.I.N.G i heard, read and saw.
I just could not stop.
What with my uncertain future while all my friends are spreading all around the globe.
What with my bad skin condition. I've tried all sorts of creams, products, doctors.
But it just did not work. The only silver lining is I now know it's not the normal pimple, it's acne vulgaris.
What with my dull, monotonous routine.
It's been ages since my last encounter with modern civilisations.
But the after life won't be fun either right, since i don't have enough bekalan.
So, killing myself is not an option, yet. Sort of.
Well no, I'm NOT begging for your attention.
I'm just trying to reach out.
As from what i read, depressed people should reach out for help.
But i guess, my hands are not long enough. Maybe.