Mentally Exhausted

I AM MENTALLY EXHAUSTED.
and i just don't know why. keep on having some kind of headache but its not the normal headache, its more to dizzy-like-kind-of-headache. i can't sleep properly like I'll wake up in the middle of the night, at 1am, 3am, 4am..every single night and I'll have a very very scary dream. I feel like throwing stuff at people and I'm mad at something but i am not sure to who or what. Beauty the Dog died last Monday. i just...i don't know what to do. i need a good book, by Rachel Gibson or any book by The Little Black Dress.

Britney Says, F.U.C.K Me.

I was like, what is wrong with the song -If You Seek Amy- because people are getting so pissed of at this song and I thought ‘Amy’ was a pseudonym for Britney herself.
so i Google the song and, i can't believe i didn't notice this before, but it sounds like she is singing F.U.C.K Me when she is actually singing If You Seek Amy.
Honestly, it’s not all that bad in comparison to some other songs on the radio, songs like lollipop (she lick me like a lollipop), crank dat (superman that ho) and try to listen to estranged's Chocolate Syrup.

duh! Okay, I’m not a big Britney fan, but I mean.. come on. What’s the big deal? If you don't wanna hear it, don't. Its not like Britney is holding a Jukebox to your ears.

even Shiloh seeks Amy, lol.

I'm sorry i hate you because i love your boyfriend.

T.I : what did i do wrong... i look ugly.
Justin : banyakkan bersabar T.I .

oh Jessica Biel, I'm just a little jelly.

A Tip On How To Lose 4kg in 3 Days.

Almost all of my friends are flying and going places.
And here I am, sitting in front of the PC in my home, just finishing the laundry.
I would be lying if i said "I'm not feeling a pinch of jealousy at all".
I DO feel a lot more that just a pinch of jealousy but at the same time, i DO realized that this is how life goes.
We planned things and somehow it just...didn't work.
Of course frustration, anger and humiliation come pouring in into my head but i have to stop it from come and pour more and more frustration, anger and humiliation right into my head.
I cried. I laughed.
And i want to thank my friend, Ana, for being there when I was at my lowest point. I'm sorry Ana for being irrational, hehe.
And Keon, i honestly appreciate your simple note on my FB's wall and also your comment in my previousprevious update. Honestly.
Because sometime, at a certain point in your life phase, all we need is the littlest thing like that, thanks. :)
God knows how I feel right now. Because I have no idea what or how is my future.
All of this whole future talk is driving me confuse and...lost.
Well for now, its either USA or Indonesia.
Oh forget it for once, i will cross the bridge when i get there.


oh, how to lose 4kg in 3 days?
go for a scout camp.
no, really, it works.
ask my brother.

If a Russian can speak Malay fluently, why not a Malaysian?

my father is watching the Pidato Antarabangsa.
one of the contestant is from Russia, oh i cant recall her Russian name somethingsomething-nova for sure, hehe, but her Malay name is Kamilia.
and, she speak Malay fluently!
better than some Malaysian yang i know.
how embarrassing right?
not that kind of embarrassing but, u know.
yes, we can speak English or Chinese or whatever language we like, oh, whatever language you like but embrace our own language, embrace your own language.
be it Chinese or Urdu or whatever it is.
you know, bahasa jiwa bangsa :)
i hate it when a Malay say something like, "erm, sorry i don't speak Malay. I was born in the US and i went to International School so i can only speak English."
and then that Malay go to some mamak and order Nasi Lemak.


oh, please excuse my...ermm...my...kepatriotikan tonight, hehe ;)
its just annoying to see and hear Melayu yang lupa daratan.

nuffnang, i want nuffnang!

okay.
the thing is, i can't open nuffnang's website!
T.T
can you guys see any nuffnang's ad on my blog?
can see or not?
click on it if you can see it so i can get more money, :D
whenever i try to open the website, its either 'Page Load Error' or 'Cannot Find Server'.
BUT, i can open Nuffnang PHILIPPINES but not Nuffnang MALAYSIA.
and, how am i supposed to log in into Nuffnang PHILIPPINES?
i tried and of course, 'Error Login Page'.
oohhhhh, let me try to sign up with Nuffnang Philippine, :)
wait ah.
eh eh, boleh lah!
wohoo~
eh, is it legal?
lets give it a try lah ok?
hihi.
...
...
...
oh no, i delete it.
i feel bad, like, what if its illegal?
i live in Malaysia so why would i need to use Nuffnang Philippines.
well, simply because i cant open Nuffnang Malaysia.
right?
right.

ah, sod it!
just tell me, can you see nuffnang's ad on my blog?

something is wrong with the internet because i cant open kak lily's blog too. :(

phuck.

talented me, hihi~

ahem, ahem!

looking for a talented someone to design a tagline (if not more!) for your blog, website?
well, you come to the right place.
hihi.
what? i'm not talented enough?
i won a contest ok!
:)

im baaaaaaaaack!

hi people!
i miiisssssss you!

oh well, saya sudah delete semua previous updates and marilah mula semula. :)
im going to change the background and whatnot so please be patient ok?


keon, thanks for your comment :)

see ya soooonnn!